What have I became?, A lazy person whose day starts slowly and ends slowly with no special things to do. No matter what I do, no matter how many things I had learnt. I find myself always in the same place as before. Same old lazy person. Whose day is no special. Am I being over demanding with me or am I stopping my self form achieving my full potential. I am trying to solve how my life became like this. I never do things without planning, what I did wrong?
I was thinking about it for more than a month now .I was suffering inside. It was killing me. Just few moment before I suddenly realized everything is going under the plan!!!!. Things are just perfect as I wanted to be and problem was I forgot I wanted it. Its me who wanted this life.
This life is almost perfect if I was seeing this 4 years ago. I used wake up at 5 am then there was my masters classes and after that my job till 6 pm and I used to return home at 7. it was complete 14 hours of hectic. schedule. No time to study no time to entertain just tasteless busy life. And worst part was I hate teaching. Its not that I don’t like share what I learnt to others but In my country teaching is not sharing its making student score good marks. In my whole life I never ran for the marks. What I was suppose to teach was the thing I never tried. I can teach them how to learn new things, how to improve their brain, how to have fun with what you study but I can not teach them how to score good marks.
Parents want their children to score good marks. Teachers and school want students to score good marks so that they can advertise their school as best school of the city. And due to the effect of society students also ran for the marks. I hated that job. So literally , I was doing job I hate and I had no time to do things I love. I wanted life with freedom where I can share the knowledge I have without no restriction and also have time to do all the things I love. I was expecting life between doing something and doing nothing. But at that time my expectation were like impossible dreams which I will never experience ever in my life.
After a year I left my job at the end of session, not because of my dreams but my job was hampering my study schedule. For 2 years I just studied . After two years I had nothing to study and no job to do. So I just stopped worrying for some time.
Here I am now living perfect life I wanted and worrying by thinking I ruined my life. But actually life saved me and granted me things I wanted. I have mountain bike which I wanted since I was kid. I still do teaching but I don’t teach them to score good marks but I just share them what I know. I am learning bunny hopping on my MTB. I started learning parkour again though I am back to basics learning precision and basic vault and I can do just 3 pull ups now. Am I the silliest person in the world who become frustrated for having life I wanted for soo long or it means I have lived my dream so its time to come out of hibernation and do something useful because my major dream is to become one crazy scientist and explore the universe but It seems impossible till now . Life had granted me what I have now so its not impossible that few years from now I will be flying inside “International Space Station” eating weird tasteless space food and getting ready for trip to the farthest edge of the universe and still feeling frustrated and thinking what my life had become because we always seem to forget what we wanted after we have it.
Who have thought I can use my mobile and my bag to use it to shoot my journey. This trail got wide variety of choices we can go up to Methlang , sarangkot or we can take some side trails for professionals or anyone can start a journey from Ratomato Hill ( Pokhara ,parsyang ) to lakeside. I think I should change My name to Mr.Lucky……………
“Parkour” is the word I heard for the first time six years ago. I was a lazy person that time and I recently finished my High school. What I was looking for a motivation to keep myself fit and strong . So I started google little with a key word how to be ninja(sounds funny but I was looking for motivation)
The top result was Urban Ninja and when I opened a link I came to know the word Parkour. Parkour and it was saying parkour is not a sport it is a art. It involves running, vaulting , jumping, performing fascinating move. Right then I googled ” how to learn parkour” I’m again amazed by a saying ‘to practice parkour you do not need any special place and special equipment and no special back ground( marital art, gymnastic) bingo then created account in that website and subscribed for a daily parkour training email( I don’t remember which website was that). I started parkour but I had very long to go………..
Parkour was entirely new name for me and other people of my society too even the moves of parkour were like a alien monkey was dancing on earth. People used to stare at me when I used to do parkour warm ups “monkey walk” . To learn the balance I pretended as if walking on a rail but on a straight line of the gound. To learn precision was jumping from one line to another which I draw on the ground. Most problem is my age in my society people things like jumping running vaulting are the games for the kids not for adult. When I was practicing parkour I was studying Bsc physics so it was difficult to make people to understand what I was doing. Some people even said am I not ashamed of what I was doing ( kids stuff). So I make one plan I just started to practice parkour near people rather than far from them so that they can ask what I was doing . I did that every time and everytime people asked what I was doing I stayed there and explained parkour from beginning from history to the modern time and there were lot of advertisement which are using parkour so I connected them with that. After that I came to know many people and I got the name tag parkour. People rather preferred me by name parkour than Amrit. So I included my middle name parkour so my name became
Amrit Parkour Gautam.
As I started learning parkour I started to try more moves. They were very hard for learning but harder part was to find best place to learn these moves but unfortunately there is no best place to learn it. I have to look for different places. The places which are appropriate for practicing those moves are most of time turn out to be private and no accessible places. So I have to learn those moves in different places .For eg. To practice precission I have to go to local park to practice jumps rolls I have to climb hills, to practice flow I have to find river banks. Some how I learnt the moves but there is no place I practice those with flow and properly. Then I modified myself and left concerntrating on the fancy move to the moves which are applicable in my terrain and the moves which I can apply practically. I mostly concentrated on flow, speed, climbing, rolling and speed vaults only.
Anything that can comes between you and parkour as you started parkour are motivation and injury. Motivation is the thing you need most but it is difficult to get and injury and parkour comes together but they do not go well together. One severe injury and you are out of the parkour buisness for months sometime years. Fractures and scratches were common things for me they never stop me from practicing parkour for more than a day but once I broke my arm so that I have to stop my practice for 4 months for first two months I was not even able to change T-shirt with out supporting my left arm on something or by help. When I was back things were never same before my fitness level is lot before I was not ready to practice moves both physically but mainly mentally. I needed motivation to achieve it again but I was only person to practice parkour in my city and even in Nepal . I used to sit in computer for hours to see videos on youtube to motivate myself but it was really difficult task. And I found some kids in kathmandu who are interested in learning parkour . So I decided to be motivation for parkour to them and I just don’t wanted them to go through the difficulty I been through. It took me another year to overcome fear and get back what I achieved before injury.
As years passed by I find difficult to manage time for the parkour because of my study as I was doing master in physics and I was a secondary teacher. My daily routine started from going to college at 5:00 am in the morning and returning home at 8:00 pm. Altogether I had hectic 15 hours of schedule in which parkour is not included. So I only practiced parkour in some Saturday or during holiday only but its like none. Because of that I have to be away from pakour for a Year. That I found out that parkour had never only made me physically strong but It had made me mentally strong too . I had busy shedule before but I was mentally prepare for it but that time I was not. I missed my parkour practice lot that time but there was no way to manage time practice parkour that time. I used to ask myself will I be able to practice it again?………….
Finally after 1 year I left my job. I had my study going but I have lot time for parkour now. I am home again and that time I found out parkour had became part of me. Now I cant do moves I used to do but I am doing parkour. Scratches and fractures are back in my life. I learnt one valuable lesson in my life through parkour. Problems of life are like obstacle of parkours and we have to use problem as a tool to reach our goals we have to vault them, jump over them . We have to enjoy problems rather than going away from them. Problem in my life had came and go but what I always will be is Amrit Parkour Gautam………
Beauty in not outside its inside our head.
if we see something beautiful we have to make it beautiful for others too………………….